ish-ie's entries

2008-11-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

ok.it's been freaking long since i last updated.

ok.been busy trying to study for the coming mid sem tests.and it's not helping when i get jealous tt sec/jc ppl are having their holidays!!lol.ok.i get the point where it's their turn now since ours had just passed.but it's irritating when the i think of it!-.-

anyway,salsa lesson was super fun today.then me and yiru decided to trt ourselves to a good meal.so we went to pasta mania for pizza!yummy.haha.then i suggested arcade.glad i did=) we had so much fun. then we decided tt every thurs shall be the relax-day where we go for dance and a good meal. lol.

plus, there was the 'pasar malam' next to tm.and gosh. they now have interesting games for the kids. JEALOUS.lol.

it's a game where the kids can run in the 'bubble' in the pond.fun right?!

2008-11-01T21:57:00.002+08:00

ok. didnt really got to update much recently due to the hectic start of sch week.

alright,sch had been really bad these few days. due to comskills! always nv fails to get my blood boiling. is it just the guys issue tt guys are naturally lazier than girls, cant be bothered and just cannot be punctual or is it just my group members?they drive me up the walls.

didnt get enough slp and almost had a sore eye.was kinda bad.but luckily, we still had solid stuffs to present during consultation.

'sch's fun and i cant wait for sch to start' came back to haunt me.-.-

thank god i had the weekends and lovely ppl to make it better!
intended to go butter factory ytd.but it was soooooo packed everywhere. ended up in CHECK.i think.(pictures will be uploaded again sooon.lol) jayne came over to stay.it was hilarious.she was drunk in a way.HAHA.

but of cuz, most imptly,i have u=)
loves!

2008-11-01T21:24:00.004+08:00

Pictures from chalet.stole from jiahui's.LOL.

look who's in the centre.haha.

i love this picture! cuz i looked super fair in it.lol.

poor thing.i wasnt in a part of it.lol.

oh.lol.

2008-10-27T16:18:00.009+08:00

didnt have time to update.

24th oct was my first anniversary with him.couldnt wait for lesson to end.supposedly to be going bosses to have our lunch.but ended up at din tai fung.cuz i was too hungry.then he brought me to sentosa for cable car,sky train and then the beach.i wanted so badly to spend the rest of the night with him.but cuz it was jayne's bday as well,i had to rush to the celebration.so he sent me there.it was a lovely time with him.loves.=)

surprised jayne by turning up and a bday cake.cuz i told her i couldnt make it.it was part of the plan.then ate our dinner at some sushi place at ehub.it was so fun spending time with them.then the photo taking session with them was hilarious.especially when jayne tried to jump.so funny!haha.

it was a great tiring day=)

and i just came back frm karate chalet.it was fun.but super tiring.i aching all over frm all the walking and roller blading.but still,glad i spent my time there!hopefully i will have pics to upload on it.lol.

2008-10-14T15:04:00.003+08:00

ytd was fun.super.ok.not in the morning when they made us wake up so early in sure of getting the timetable.but still,funny.lol.went cycling with peeps.but i think the hilarious part was when chen and wilson try to sandwich me when we were cycling.and the part where they tried to act some hooligan bullying a small lil' girl.funny.oh.not forgetting jayne.the big star for the day.lol.seeing her cycling was thrilling.like u nv know when she really was going to hit into smth or someone.lol.

too bad xk couldnt join us for work.supposed to for a dinner or smth after tt.but we were really too tired.but still.it was fun.and we promised a dinner on fri=)tgt.

and i can finally use my phone.but all my contacts are like gone.so ppl,don mind me if the next time u msg me,i will go. 'i'm sorry.but u are?'lol.and yes.been having all these dizzy spells and slight headaches.not sure wad's causing it.but today's so much better=)thankfully.

yeah.sch's reopening soon.like next week.workloads don sound fun.but sch does spells fun!cant wait.=)

this was the temp hp pouch chen was using.it was so funny.i couldnt stop teasing him.well,can i bribe him with this?lol.

and this is the meal tt got me so excited.i mean.look at the prawns!haha.cuz chen doesnt eat prawns.so off they are in my bowl=)yummy.oh.this pretty scene caught my eyes.this particular one is a beauty among the rest.

2008-10-11T02:18:00.003+08:00

ok.went to get my pay today.supposed to be a happy thing.but.i lost my phone then.i still cant believe it.and i'm so mad at myself for tt.so now,there's unnecessary spendings for phone.it's so irritating.to think i'm still trying to save.=(so yes,i'm trying to get it off my mind badly.

i didnt see these issues coming
i tot everything was suppose to be simple
like it doesnt come with such profound-issues package
now i know i'm wrong
but where do i start?
nobody taught me to or how
crying didnt help
it didnt help at all.

i still have a choice
i think.
back to square one,to avoid
or find my way out.
but it aint easy
it alr wasnt.

2008-10-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

went out for yiru's super belated birthday celebration ytd.we didnt start the day quite as planned when the guys overslept.then it was worse when our surprise-her-plan turned into more of like a foiled surprise plan.so yep.we laughed our heads off as it was really hilarious.

after tt we went k box at ehub.been quite some time since i went.and i think my song selection is getting from 1 to 0.lol.i know nuts abt the latest chi songs.then when i turned desperately to el songs,the song selection is really limited.lol.

i shall upload the pics after thurs,after our majong session=)

met up with him after his work for lunch today.i was suppose to be early but i ended up late again.lol.i swear it aint my fault!it was bus 22.i had arvin to verify.lol.cuz i met him at the bus stop.haha.then it was a butt aching journey to tiong bahru.lol.but it was all ok after we met up=)walked ard and went for a movie.painted skin was not bad=)

then i so wanted to really meet up with mr ng and peeps.but it didnt happened again.and yes.i was really upset and disappointed.it's been long.too long.hopefully the next one really will happen.so my day was kinda ruined.went home to watch buffy which did cheered me a lil'.

i don get it.not at all.

thanks for hearing me rant=)

2008-10-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

ok. i have pictures for the concert night=) yeahs.

loves=)

2008-10-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

omg. my hse is being painted now.chaotic.though it looks really new after a new coat of fresh paint, i still cant wait for it to be over.oh. i forgot to mention,only my room's going to be pink!cant wait to see how it will look like!

and yes.i was stucked in my room the whole day.luckily i was kept occupied with some new 'project' i decided to embark on. BUT! i'm nv ever going to do it again. it's f*cking difficult. (i find la!) and it didnt turn out to be as pretty lil' thing like i expected. =(

nevertheless,mr gastric came back knocking on my door AGAIN.i think partly it's my own fault.i'm simply too stuborn.lol.but still it's an awful feeling this time.cuz i have no appetite and i have difficulties swallowing down my food even though i'm hungry.then when i'm done with the food, i feel like vomiting.sucks.

2008-10-02T01:23:00.001+08:00

omg.it's finally my last day of work alr!!!yeah yeah!*claps*now i can party and play and rest and many many more..absoutely happiness=)

it just keeps getting better.

2008-09-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

ytd was pure fun.especially when i didnt have to work.interview was er cold?cuz i was shivering in the lib.haha.then we went marina square to do some shopping!!!haha.i was high.i think.lol.but my stamina for shopping has decreased!!!grr.

after being drained frm shopping,had cravings for ice cream.went swensens.lol.then we caught a glimpse of F1.it was er damn fast and noisy?tt's abt it.didnt like it.haha.

journey home was sweet=)

onli u had the patience for me

i think.lol.

omg.i'm attached.

lol.

i just realised i have alot alot pair of shoes.some i didnt even wear before.gosh.i must stop buying shoes alr.

does 20 pairs count as a festish for shoes?lol.

2008-09-27T00:43:00.002+08:00

omg.i feeling so happy.happy happy happy.i cant wait for work to end officially and then get my pay!!!then it will be shopping,majong and vcds session in my life.but of cuz,and some other things.=)

u said it aint counted
but i think it is
how how?
wad's the date?
so confusing.
LOL.

2008-09-22T23:45:00.002+08:00

hmm.gastirc acted up again.horrible.

but today was loves as u came to send me home=)

he still haven ask
it's weird as it's there but not yet there.

2008-09-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

sc camp was damn fun.did not regret not going.seriously.=)

of cuz,there were other reasons tt were fun.lol.

but oh shit.i have sunburn now on my cheeks.damn.

hopefully,i can have the pictures to upload SOON.

u covered me with ur jacket when i fell asleep
damn funny.lol.
and u sent me hm.haha.
loves=)

2008-09-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

yeah!sports club camp is like tmr=)playtime!cant wait cant wait.but i'm still having those stomachaches.why?

and i realised i have like 6 bruises.3 on my arm,3 on my leg.but for goodness sake,i dono where and how i got it.lol.

ok.i noe yenkang reads my blog!!!lol.
HELLO yenkang.are u like reading it now??haha.=)

it only gets better.lol.
only tt the whole world seems to know it now.

2008-09-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

work was practically machine gun session today.super funny.but i think we three had fun.=)

u wan to come for a visit
it alr got me so excited
haha
effort well appreciated

-happy but tired frm work-

2008-09-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

work was full of laughter today.dance was fun too.we went to eat at ice monster after dinner.it was love!yummy yummy!lol.i swear i'm going again for the durian and mango thingy!=)but next week, it's the performance for the last lesson for hiphop.i think i wan to faint.i have a serious issue of keeping up with the super sonic beats.damn.i shall cross my fingers.LOL.

and i cant wait to get into my salsa lesson now.loves.

i'm so happy now.
practically eveyday.
even when it's not.
but i'm totally ready for it.
loves=)

2008-09-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

camp was absotuely fun this yr! though tiring, but it was all worth it. of cuz there were someone there to make it even better.=)

hopefully i will have some pictures to upload my boring blog.haha.

now i have to be back to work.boring.

despite being busy,you never forgot me.lol.
during meals
nightwalk
milo
teh
games
it was lovely=)

2008-09-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

wa.this week i'm like damn happy!mon went off early,wed off,fri and sat camp.like pratically no need to work la.but ar.means lesser money oso.-.-but i'm really tired alr.

ok.i just trimmed my brows and cut my fringe.i look like some small girl now.shit.

i fancy 2 things things now.
1.pretty shoes
2.sour plums

LOL.

i'm not sure of how,
i'm not sure of when,
insecurity came kicking in.
in need of reassurance.

2008-09-04T01:14:00.002+08:00

i noe now wad my world revolves with.lol.thank you.=)

work is super boring.things are even worse with tt her.grr.i cant stand her.such two faced.it's irritating.
if not for my fren as i promised to help her out,i will alr quit lo.omg. 31st,faster come.

i bought him cough syrup/herbal tea and sweet today.funny.mummy tot i was the one who wasnt feeling well.LOL.he finshed the whole bottle of the bitter-looking herbal tea.haha.face changed.amusing.

monday.monday.i cant wait.it will be fun.i noe.haha.

loves.

2008-08-30T23:44:00.002+08:00

u got me into it.i think.

now i'm getting moody cuz i don have much for my holidays.like work and work onli.grr.not even having the time to shop ard and play.luckily there's still training.of cuz,with other reasons too.cant wait for camp now.but don wan it to be over so soon too.grr.

there's so much fun recently that i just want more of it.more!haha.but hopefully,i wont anticipate too much out of it too.i really don want to be disappointed too.but i'm not sure too.like i'm not sure if u are sure sort-of-thing.lol.grr.this is confusing.like always.

starting work tmr alr.i shld have asked for mon.so i can rest tmr.dumb right?grr.but still,i hope everything will be fine=)

2008-08-27T00:23:00.002+08:00

ob and marketing papers were alright.hopefully i will do well in both=)crosses fingers.

hopefully xiang did enjoy the surprise we had for him.lol.anyway,it was funny.

friday's coming.hurry hurry.

xD

2008-08-24T17:51:00.002+08:00

i feel it's happening again.but this time round,i shall hold on to it.

having 2 papers tmr.crosses my fingers.hopefully i will do well enough to pull my gpa up to the 3 spot again.
then i will end my paper on fri.cant wait!for 2 reasons.i know it'll be fun!

wad i have in mind now:
1.OB
2.marketing
3.statistic
4.you
5.clothes!(haha.i got sick of tees and shorts during study week.really!)

2008-08-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

another loved day.everything=)

low profiled

2008-08-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

i didnt wan to end last night.it was such fun.i think the conversation had connections.lol.talking can be entertaining too.really.

happy=)

since the past two days of studying with karate peeps,i realised i have high self-monitoring skills la!haha.they sometimes can really talk.lol.but it was fun.till at dinner time when there was this super big cat which kept circulating our table.grr.fun izzit?later i hook kick u la.LOL.i'm paranoid now.=(

i look forward to my days now with more meaning.thanks.

girl:a lie will need another to cover it.so dont.

2008-08-21T03:11:00.000+08:00

happy
happy
happy
xD

2008-08-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

today is a face-the-notes and study day.LOL.but super nice ting popped by and we mugged tgt!of coz there were some chit-chat session.but i managed to study quite alot today=)watching AS stuffs, i really thank god that i'm in BUSINESS.(not that i had any intentions to go AS in the first place.lol)but the memorising work,only a word to describe--->SCARY.

then as i had cravings for subway,we walked all the way to eat subway for our dinner.satisfying.it was such coincidence to see nelson there.he's like super free lo.drived,parked at stadium,walked to subway,just to grab a dinner!lol.but he was extra nice when he gave us a ride home.thanks!=)

i'm so glad i forsaked my training today to study.though i will missed out alot and my cute lil' angmoh boy(if he was there) but i'm happy to have squeezed all those info in my small lil' brain!haha.i shall give a pat on my shoulders!haha.

alright,tmr will be another long day.luckily there's training tmr to help me de-stress a lil'!

i wan to make nice lil' dresses like them in project runway!lol.

i feel it is
i fear it is
but i think i'm more ready
at least for this time round.

2008-08-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

i finally decided not to go training tmr.cuz i was almost like a zombie in sch today.super tired.got myself to rest at home.just to relax.off-day=)

did all my notes.so scary.i'm so afraid i don have enough time to finish cramming all the stuffs in la.damn.

on another note.don criticise our national players.cuz it really aint easy to be even in the national.alot of time and effort is put into it.sometimes it's even no life.but who will understand.only u,themselves.cuz onli they understand the joy,the passion.

i have my goals up in my head alr.i hope.

i don wan it to happen.
but i cant stop it too.
perhaps
perhaps
perhaps.

2008-08-13T01:57:00.002+08:00

yeahs.i finally bought a haversack to save my shoulder frm aching.lol.loves mummy.=)

well,was expecting to be rain-free this evening.but who knows,it was pouring like shit.poor me.i was like in a sleeveless top and shorts la!grr.freezing like hell.till super nice zongli offered me his jacket when we met=)haha.thanks!

training was exactly tiring today.more like 'blisters-are-pain' training.LOL.yes yes.poor me feet.but there were lots of kids there today.haha.one lil' angmoh boy was there cuz his sis's in the training.OMG.he's like super cute la!haha.he kept trying to disrupt our training and told us he was some green power ranger.blah blah.haha.the best part,after training,alex(his name) came to hug me can??!LOL.not only he did that, he wanted to marry me.-faints-haha.

alex:"i wan to marry u."(still hugging me)
me: (laughs)"no.you cant.you are too young."
alex:"yes. i can.i can even..."
THEN HE KISSED ME LA!LOL.(luckily i dodged and he kissed my cheeks instead of my lips!)

haha.then he didnt want to go home.and he wanted me to go home with him.
-couldnt stop laughing-LOL.
he's only like 3 or 4 years old lo.haha.damn cute angmoh boy.=)

i got myself full of contradictions.

2008-08-10T21:33:00.002+08:00

i think i'm mad. officially. haha.

mon:hiphop lesson
tue:karate training at mp
wed:karate training at tp
thurs:movie with family
fri:karate training at np
then ton at pasir ris park.

am i super woman?LOL.i feel i am.haha.i'm nuts.but sadly,i'm going to miss alot of trainings when i work during the holidays.how?i'm afraid that sensei wont be happy abt it.damn.

though it's tiring,but i'm seeing more of myself in it.it works.put ur heart and soul into smth,then u will feel it.really=)

but sadly,i was called 'bimbo' twice during training on fri la!shit it.i'm not ok.ok gim kai??!!grr.u and ur tricks.i'm just slow and innocent.really.haha.and though the trip to pasir ris park was kinda boring, i'm glad i had spent time with my clique.cuz i was apparantly missing in action due to trainings.haha.sorry peeps.

and the exams are round the corner!i'm so dead.cuz i cant seem to focus.

afraid of so many things
embrace me pls.

2008-08-07T00:12:00.002+08:00

hiphop lesson on mon was fun!but muscles aching though.grr.went to MP training on tues.first time there but i'm alr loving the training there!lol.cuz it's such a small group and they are really tough there.it's worthwhile and i guess i will be going there from now on.=)

time spent at karate booth today was fun.the half squat challenge was so cool la!the record holder had a time of one hour plus plus. if my muscles werent aching,, most prob i will give it a go. then i skipped statistic lecture and went to eat with karate peeps.THEY had such wonderful time teasing me lo. seriously. lol. but it's ok. i'm glad we all had fun. training was tiring though.

but i'm so upset la.ginkai and nicholas kept asking me why i dont have bf blah blah.say wad i look like the kind i have and so on.the worst part: 'u look like u broke many hearts'. i didnt! i don wan the 'have-bf' look. really. it's not my fault. LOL.

-hard work will pay off-

2008-08-03T19:45:00.002+08:00

omg.went town on fri with clique.xiang and cw were the one who wanted to buy stuffs.ended up,i was onli the one who bought clothings.LOL.then we went chomp chomp.my first time there.far,but food was nice.i love the beancurd there.it's like f*cking nice la!haha.

went for karate outing today.played food trail game.OMG.it's freaking tired la!lol.walk here and there,run here and there.pit stop was at botanic garden.i swear i'm not going there like in 5 yrs time.lol.super hot and tiring!imaging we HAD TO RUN!i swear i almost died!haha.weak right?lol.
but it was so fun.juniors are love=)

and i've decided to go for extra training on tues.cuz i doubt myself now.

2008-07-31T01:34:00.002+08:00

i skipped otbs lesson today!lol.cause xk's sick.(not my fault, cuz i'm not sick!lol.)don wan to rot alone there.besides, i dont think i have anything to do there.lol.then met up with jayne and josephine for lunch and slack before lecture.it was fun just talking=)

training was fun today.couldnt stop laughing with the juniors.they are such love!haha.now i cant wait for sunday to come!the games.oh man.it has been a long time since i last become a facilitator!haha.

i doubt myself now.
for i dono if i'm up to the standards.
but still, i cant stand her. grr.

2008-07-30T00:33:00.002+08:00

karate competition was such disappointment.i didnt get a chance to like kick her ass or punch her face!grr.i was really hoping to do so.(shld noe who i'm refering to.)nevertheless,it was so much fun hanging ard with the juniors.they are such love=)

back at sch,been feeling abit moody.well,things certainly are getting more tensed up with project deadlines approaching.and one of the heavy burden is gone after handling up marketing project today.=)

and well,i noe things are different now.totally different.

i have been thinking alot lately too.

but i'm so happy for xk!lol.

2008-07-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

it's been long since i last blog.updates.

went to lin you jia's concert thingy when he came to tp.he was super funny.lol.it was fun.(though there were some irritating issues.)

and yiru's back in sch alr. even though her chicken pox is not even one month thingy.lol.

went k last night with them.( i sensed some stuffs)lol. stupid cw kept making me do stupid stuffs without me realising on the way home.

went to sch today, intended to run after lesson. but i slipped and twisted my left ankle on the way to sch. damn. there's even like this wound on my kneecap now. grr. i cant walk properly now as the ankle's a lil' swollen. i'm worried for my competition on sun. gosh.

and can i say that i eat like super alot these days? till xk and cw keep saying that i'm pregnant or wadever shit. lol. but i need to like go on diet or something before i become fat.LOL.

thank god she's alright.
i was so worried for her.
don think i can lose her.
not anytime soon.
really.

2008-07-17T00:30:00.002+08:00

wanying's full of energy.lol.glad though.
statistics lecture was spiced up when a course mate did a dare.super funny.nigel went up to the mic and asked hanlin for a movie date tmr.this was in order to get 50 bucks from anton.lol.hanlin kept covering her face with her papers.and all these were being video-ed and posted to youtube.LOL.

all these days
i'm supposed to be happy
but i stare at the picture on the wall
u're still stuck in there.

back to square one.

2008-07-16T01:14:00.002+08:00

i don even rmb wad lesson i had today alr.cuz today was just project day.been staring infront of the com dono since wad time.we tried to finish marketing and OB project.it was tough.i onli had xiang to rely on and he had my back.gosh.we tot we were really going to faint.grr.

dinner time's forever fun.crapped.and as usual,they couldnt stop with the pau girl.lol.i'm not going to eat pau infront of them again.lol.

recover soon wanying.hope to see you soon=)

the more i try to not care,
the more i seem to see u.
it never should have started.
for i cant see an end to it.

my little red rosy dreams.

2008-07-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

as usual,mondays are chores.i got emotional during otbs.die.i wan to go knock the wall.all his fault.=(and i was again tempted to skip business statistic lessons.grr.bored.

thank god it didnt rain today.went running with chen.wilson waited for us and we headed for dinner.i got high on the way for no reason.lol.chen was so damn irritating when he started to spilling water frm the ice at me la!lol.we crapped as usual.it was fun.

not going work tmr as i need to finished up my projects and stuff.damn.income gone.nvm.i shall enjoy the 'free frm work' burden day.(though i doubt so.)

next mon.
i prayed for u.
please.

i wan to run all my life.

2008-07-13T21:25:00.002+08:00

tutorials and projects summed up the day.of cuz, there were naps and tv programms too.lol.

dinner was high.cuz there was my fav dish.prawn dumplings.i got so high when i see big big prawns.lol.=)

i wan to go running.lol.

please.
let me be the one who had worried too much.
let me be the one who had over-reacted.
please.

2008-07-12T21:35:00.002+08:00

kbox at ehub was as fun last night.but damn ex la.lol.and so i ended up walking home frm pasir ris with cw.we talked and talked.walked and ate cup noodles.lol.and i realised i cant drink the soup when i'm walking la.stupid him kept laughing at me!grr.

so yes,ended up i reached home and slept at 4 when my training's at 8.30am.lol.i was so damn tired.but training was still fun and rewarding=)
supposed to go out with mum.but my nap caused it.cuz i dozed off and slept for decades.
for once.i really didnt feel like waking up.it was a good deep sleep.

now.there's projects and tutorials awaiting for me.yawns.

the day i fear may seemed to be here.
i'm really freaking out for once.
i can onli pray for now.
please.

2008-07-10T00:33:00.001+08:00

happy happy happy xD

feel so lost without yiru babe.in a way.
get well soon.loves.

2008-07-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

my day started off waking up with a weird dream.it's abt me being away but forgot to bring my passport and stuffs.and then the next thing i noe,somebody's chasing after me to kill me.lol.weird~

mondays' lessons are as dreadful.wanted so badly to skip otbs and statistic lessons.but i had to forced myself to stay put in case it starts becoming a habit.lol.but luckily xk was there to entertain me.(or rather the other way round)he finds it rather amusing that i kept typing wrong stuffs or to have funny errors coming up in otbs lessons.and then during in statistic class,i told him to acc me to cheers after lesson as i had cravings for paus,he couldnt stop laughing,saying i was really random.so throughout the journey home,he was kept entertained by naming me 'pau girl'.wadever.LOL.

chilling at home was cool.i just laid my ass on the couch and watched the tv programmes all the way.haha.it was really nice when now they have the 2 hrs special for 'so u think u can dance'.it was great!the dancers are really good and i was so 'hyped up' after watching it.cant wait for my hiphop lessons to start.but i'm rather nervous.haha.

thankfully,i have onli one marketing lesson tmr as i so dont have the mood to study and pay attention.haha.

i feel that i have lost u along the way.
for now we dont have much to say.
why?
but i'm trying hard to find u back
or rather, find myself back.

i dono wad exactly i want
it seemed to have become a routine.
i see it coming and feel joy
but then freaked out at the same time
or sometimes even the last few moments.
why?
i'm confused.
and realised it's the cause of my mixed feelings.
damn.

2008-07-05T14:17:00.002+08:00

i realised i had been feeling grumpy lately.but no doubt,that feelings gone for good=)i'm feeling bubbly again!haha.

met up with jas and the rest for bbq ytd.thanks for the belated prezzies=)it was fun.fun watching the rest get drunk and high but not me.lol.and yes.i'm waiting for the pics=)cant wait to go clubbing with them!lol.

as usual,training in the early morning is always such a dread.but always at the end of the training, i'll be thankful i went.the fun bunch of people.but damn.they realised my limited vocab.grr.haha.now,i just want to watch my buffy and sleep!!lol.

2008-07-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

today was only fun like after lesson.lol.met up with mum for lunch.went e-hub.walked ard and we went gelare.ice-ceam's cool,but not when we were getting kinda full.haha.then we decided to watch a movie.called up dad and waited for him to end work.so mum and me went to rot at fairprice(lol.cuz there wasnt really much to shop at e-hub.)then we went to the arcade.mum's cool.she lasted longer than me time crisis 3 can?lol.it was fun hanging out with her.then dad came and luckily he brought me a cardigan as i was freezing!watched incredible hulk.it was not bad.but i love the lead actress.she's such a beauty!

but earlier i went to collect my CCA merit award thingy.was kinda expecting a voucher or smth.but end up it's a cool trophy thingy.and it's a pretty little one.i'm actually kinda happy abt it.lol.

my pretty lil' thing=)(the cert's cool too.it's date is like on my birthday la.lol)

recently,i think i've got to understand myself a lil' more.
i realised i don exactly fancy competitions.not even more when they are are ur frenz.
i feel it's redundant and dont serve a purpose.
u live ur own life.so why compare?
so wad if u win? and wad if u lose?
i dont get it.

2008-06-28T20:24:00.002+08:00

dinner with clique was fun ytd.played games and chat with xk and cw.haha.yet again,so many things.thanks xk for helping to get the directions.haha.(cuz i think sheena didnt really noe wad she was saying.and with my poor sense of directions,it didnt help.)
met up with tonberry then.it was happy to see them again.went central then timber.but it was a regretful choice.(though timber's a nice place)i don feel that i exactly click with them anymore.i dono whether if it's i'm the one who changed or i suddenly 'see them clearly'.sadly, for some reasons,i don enjoy their conversations and their companies anymore.but i dono why.but i was shocked when they actually forgot to msg peanut for birthday wishes when i actually told them.(but maybe it's not the first time too.cuz they forgot abt my bday as well.)but i was shocked when they actually said "u wan to celebrate his bday meh?"gosh.
verdict:i don see myself hanging out with them again.that's abt it.sorry.

training was exhausting as i onli slept at 3am ytd.nightrider took a freaking long time before i reached home.but still,it was fun.shuhui came up with issue of commitment for us.i'm feeling the pressure like again.cuz there's onli the few of us(girls).so when there's stuffs,it's either me or u kinda thing.sigh.i really do like karate.but i'm not sure where i'm heading to.and still it's fustrating that ppl still don see it as my passion.they just consider it as some lame trainings or dont see the importance of it.stop alright.or not i'll get nasty.cuz people do need to understand different beings have different passion and likings.get it?

-fuzzy-

2008-06-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

OMG.2 of my law project mates are such f*ers la!grr.firstly,they dont attempt to interact with ya,next they show up on project consultation with stuffs and made it seemed like we are the ones who doesnt do anything.then they finished really nicely the easy parts and throw it backs to u to let u fill up the difficult part.wad the f!then when u try to be nice with them,she writes u msg saying it is a GROUP project which actually shouts please bother to do something.oh come on,we arent the one who didnt do anything alright?we did the same stuffs,onli that u insist to like use ur stuffs instead of ours and then happily throws the diff part back to us.screw u!grr.alright.i shall stop before my language gets more vulgar.(pardon me,but cant help it.)

on the brighter side,work was fun but tiring today.saw all the lovely kids i actually like.haha.and sure they were happy too.and i know where's my karate belt now.lol.with a junior.the kind soul helped me kept it!haha.thanks man!=)

but OMG.i'm getting OB paper back tmr.cant help to feel nervous abt it.(cuz i'm feeling the expectations.lol.)

2008-06-26T01:13:00.002+08:00

OMG.chenwee and xk were both really irritating today.they kept imitating me la!and due to my alr limited vocab,i have to like come out with a new lists of words now!cuz they are always finishing my sentences now or even before i start to open my mouth,they alr noe wad i'm going to say!they are really enjoying it.lol.but it's fun in a way too.haha.damn.

karate was tiring today.it ended at like ten la.lol.and i think i got so use to agnes' company.when she wasnt there yet,i felt so damn insecure lo.haha.but love ya babe!=)and yep!got my tp jacket today!and i realised u can ONLI get one in the 3 years.so honoured can?!haha.(not everybody can represent sch and stuff wad.lol.)alright,and thanks to shuhui,i got my braclet back!thanks!i tot it's lost.and i didnt take my karate belt home today la.damn.how careless can i get??and then,i have a feeling i'm secretly(ok.not so secretly now) having a small crush on ngee ann poly's captain la!he's so bloody cute!haha.ok.i'm sure it's onli temporary onli.no worries.LOL.

from my entry-i think i'm feeling kinda 'high'.lol.but i have no idea.haha.

2008-06-24T00:06:00.002+08:00

weekend was great!so didnt want it to end.lol.

went bintan over the weekends with cousins.it was so relaxing and was just pure fun=)and the massive amount of spf50 sunblock really do work.haha.
there were buffet,jetskiing,go-kart and getting drunk cum high session(for me) on the first day.sadly,it was boring for me on the second day(but still the lunch cum dinner was awesome). i'm so regretting not going snorkeling on the 2nd day.grr.(will have to try it someday)lol.

alright.pictures will be like uploaded soon.lol.

and sch started today.it was a bore.didnt even got back any papers.but still,companions frm peeps rocks.lol.we were so afraid of not able to get lockers and so we decided to go get it during breaktime ard noon.and glad we went early.lol.then we went running at bedok reservoir after lessons.didnt run as fast.then dinner time was hilarious.cuz i had dinner at home.but they wanted to have dinner tgt.so ended up,they packed food and i brought my bowl of dinner down to my hse's void deck. that was literally our dinner area then. i swear the whole time i was trying to hide my face when i spotted any familiar neighbours.LOL.it was fun though.(cuz it's like the first time i'm doing this.)

i want to play.

disappointment can sometimes feel so bad.
like when things didnt turn out to be as expected
or when who u thought are ur close frenz suddenly don even call and ask abt u,
they become strangers just like any other on the streets.
it's scary.

2008-06-19T04:40:00.002+08:00

class bbq was ok.though quite little turned up.they are actually funny.and there were alot of guys things going on ard that night.haha.cw came to join us after it ended.we went to play pool tgt with weixian.it was fun.didnt play since decades.haha.then we went k while weixian went home.they were crazy.haha.they kept shouting like nobody business. i didnt join in though.didnt want to spoil my throat.haha.then i tried to get myself high with some spice girls song.lol.of cuz the journey home in the morning was tiresome though.as usual.another fun day passed.lol.

holidays are ending.and i SO don wan it to.lol.weekends' over at bintan.i hope it's going to be fun.

i'm dealing with some issues now
u never exactly given me support
yet now again
and the same topic is always being brought up
and not surprisingly,this time again.
i don wan to argue
at least not with you.

-deprived-

2008-06-16T03:13:00.009+08:00

got up early on thurs to meet up with dennis,em and ting.and again,they surprised me.now i'm really not too sure if i'm the one who's kinda slow or my frenz really do noe how to surprise me.lol.

ok.it started with a lil'anger in me as they were late!haha.then they three showed up tgt(when they werent supposed to)but i didnt suspect anything.saw dennis with a sunflower in his bag,i didnt tot of anything then,tot it was for his gf or smth.so we proceeded with our brunch.then we went to tm/cs for a walk.needed to pee, so ting went to the ladies with me.when we came out,ting told me that dennis needed to buy smth for his gf so they went to tm first(and stupidly,i still didnt think of anything.)so when we were at tm basement, they suddenly poped out of nowhere with a minicake and told me that the sunflower's for me!then they sang me bday song which was really loud till ppl kept looking as if we were some freaks.lol.they bought me chocolates and the card was this pic of me decades ago?when i looked really fugly.haha.went to visit em's grandma.been long since we last saw her.(we used to stayed over at em's place for mugging during the O's.and she's still as cute.)

okok.i think i'm stupid.lol. but still, thank you so much!=)

went to work and then met up with xiang,jayne,cw and wilson.we watched kungfu panda at downtown.it was really entertaining!=)then we went pasir ris park to slack after jayne went back to her chalet.we practically talked.lol.but it was still fun hanging out with them=)

on fri,went to kuzz's place to stay over.had majong and food.we could have do so much more if she didnt have work.but it's ok.there's always next time and still have fun=)

then again.cant thank enough for all those who celebrated my 18th bday with me!thanks ppl=)

-contented-camwhore in the ladies.lol.

i will miss this stupid fren cuz he's away.out in the sea due to his course.8 months wont be long=)

after movie=)

i think this is call supper.lol.

i didnt noe wad to take as it was all dark.lol
finally,some nice lights=)

2008-06-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

ok.i'm officially angry now.right this moment.fuck.

2008-06-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

ok.woke up and watch vcd today.devil wears prada is not bad=)but the stupid soya bean caused me to have a really bad tummy upset in the afternoon.lol.luckily it was ok ard training time.met up early to run with agnes.ran 8 rounds round the track.ppl must have tot we were crazy.cuz we were running with our karate gi.haha.i think 3 guys was actually laughing at me when they saw me at the car park.wtf.lol.

and then training almost killed me.super tiring.but sensei got us to demo our kata infront of the juniors.i was shivering lo.stage fright.lol.and so yes.a few mistakes in my last kata.cuz i seriously cant rmb the steps.lol.so embarrassing can?but it was great fun catching up with agnes today=)

yeah!i'm finally able to watch my kungfu panda tmr!and chill with peeps.going to crash jayne's chalet and slack.lol.tmr is going to be fun.plus i'm meeting mr ng,dennis,ting and em tmr for lunch!lol.i cant wait to see that teacher.miss him super alot!haha.tmr is really talk cock day.lol.
cant wait for tmr to come!

-excited-

i miss some ppl.really.

2008-06-11T01:30:00.005+08:00

OMG.i finally got wad i wanted today!a surprise frm my clique.lol.

it started off frm like er ytd?cuz the haircut voucher thingy was a scam!(when yiru asked me whether i wanted a haircut,they were all tgt.still all tell me wad with sec sch clique.)i tot it was real k??!!lol.cuz cw knew i wanted a haircut(i'm glad he listens to wad i say.lol.)so end up while i was cutting my hair,they were like preparing the cake and stuffs.lol.but it was really funny when they told me.cuz the person told them the haircut will take up ard an hr.but end up it was really quick.so they kinda panic.haha.yeah.in the end,the cake pop up at the bowling alley area.i really didnt expect it.haha.yiru still tell me wad she forgot to bring the other voucher.funny seh.but i didnt noe it was my bday gift.or not i wont go cut.cuz i prefer things that i can keep.told jayne abt it.then she went to tell the rest.and they were super nice!cuz they bought me a top when we went shopping.haha.

yes yes.we went shopping at far east.i bought alot of things.lol.okok.not really alot.haha.walked till we were really exhausted.but the guys didnt really shop much.rather,they were psp-ing more then shopping lo.haha.

but i really had a great time today!!thanks yiru,jayne,wanying,wilson,chenwee and of cuz xiangkuan!haha.love all of ya!=)

and oops.i think now everybody is like broke cuz of bdays.sorry.lol.the really disfigured bday cake.cuz the plastic thingy was kinda hard to get it off.lol.but it's tirimisu!so it's still nice=)

please tell me my haircut is nice.lol.

the top they bought me=)and the rest are the things i bought for the day=)

today was love!

-blessed-

2008-06-09T21:29:00.002+08:00

ok.i'm a lil' upset.i tot we were supposed to meet up for dinner.ended up waiting,looking at the clock for each hour to pass by.and still no words frm u all.tot u all were showering or smth.so didnt wan to disturb.end up,u onli replied 'we alr had dinner at sentosa'.great.it was so much fun waiting.really felt kinda stupid.nvm.it's my fault.really.i shld have known.

and i've finally decide to go cut my hair.cuz it's really kinda flat and dead.lol.so yep.going to hype it up a lil'.besides,yiru has some voucher thingy.(thanks for sharing it with me babe!)haha.ok.hopefully,it will all go well.and another round of shopping therapy cum (early)bday celebration with peeps tmr!cant wait.i seriously dono wad nasty stuff they alr came up with.haha.hopefully it wont be that bad.cuz we will be at town area u see.lol.bless me.=x

sadly,nobody knows wad i want for this year yet.but i'm alr blessed.really.thank you.
(counting down-4 more days)

woke up today feeling the world's actually kinda ugly.it's a terrible feeling.really.but it's sometimes a fact that many ignore and try to do smth nicer to make ourselves feel better or for others.but if onli everyone will share the same sentiments.
and perhaps,sometimes the venom or demon is not onli in our hearts,but oso lies in our mouths.however,not many see the point and doesnt really understand.but really,'wad goes ard,does really comes ard.'perhaps,humans just really deceive themselves too much and got use to living with all the beautiful lies and not in reality.

wad if one day all my frenz wasnt really my frenz?
wad if one day u realise ur parents didnt want u?
wad if one day u cant even see the ugly world?
wad if..
wad if..
we never find the
'truth behind those beautiful lies.'
that will be truely a saddist to call upon.

2008-06-09T02:26:00.005+08:00

updates frm dinner at newyorkx2 and at kbox for chenwee's bday celebration=)

there were too much food.lol.really.

he's the craziest guy i've ever met so far.lol.
my two besties=)i love them all=)

2008-06-09T00:22:00.003+08:00

went shopping with mummy today.she's as usual super nice.but perhaps it's due to my bday coming thingy,she was like more willlingly to pay.lol.(if u noe wad i mean)and bro was really nice this time.he let me choose a prezzie within the range of 150 bucks.haha.it's really good to be able to choose ur prezzie.haha.to conclude-shopping therapy really works!=)

to be continued on tues!

prezzie frm bro.thanks!was in dillemma whether to get a fossil watch instead of this.but in the end, i still decided on this!it cost $179.(the most expensive wallet i have owned so far.lol.)

-shopping spree spirit-

2008-06-08T01:42:00.002+08:00

ok.i think i'm going to like finally whine abt karate stuff.been some time alr.it's not abt the passion issue now.but rather the people there.i feel that the seniors kind of give me pressure.it's like it became a chore rather than just a simple training.i simply cant get it why not one senior can just offer to take the intiative to help take the attendance when both of us cant make it?and the recent camp issue.didnt tell me that the camp's been put off.and still got me to print 60 copies of it.luckily i didnt print beforehand.and when i asked,made it sound like a big hooha and stuff that the camp's been put off rather than why i wasnt informed.gosh.sometimes i just feel like giving up to kick asses.wadever.

and i have been feeling a little empty recently.dono why though.things been changing.and i realised i freaking hate changes.seriously.but i'm still game for shoppings and partying!in a way, kind of glad my bday is 'no camp day'.dont have to spend it in sch.lol.

happy that my online clothes arent bad!haha.luckily.=)

been having weird but funny(in a way) dreams.haha.but i know it wouldnt be true.i got to stop it though.before it really will get me into me.lol.cute in a way.

-thinking hard-

2008-06-06T03:05:00.002+08:00

YEAH YEAH.IT'S PLAYTIME NOW!!gosh.there's like so many stuffs to do(to enjoy)but freaking not enough time!2 weeks holidays are so not enough la.ok.never enough.haha.

finished my last paper this evening.like finally.and can i say that today's paper was freaking easy?haha.i'm actually glad that i studied OB instead of OTBS wrongly the other day.haha.cuz i was f*cking slack ytd la!i actually finished my buffy last night.(can start season 3 soon.haha.)then we went town after paper.we went newyorkx2.eat till i was really really full.think i can like skip tmr's breakfast and lunch lo.gross.lol.sadly,wanted to go shopping.but the shops were alr closed by then.grr.i was really in a shopping mood k?haha.nvm.there's still the weekends and tues!!haha.

plans for tmr is alr out.haha.kbox then meet wx/dennis they all for dinner.(a farewell thingy?)i dono.cuz wx's going off for a while and he wont be back when dennis's gone.lol.so i guess it shld be.then clique will come over for majong.haha.I WAN TO WIN MONEY.lol.but now i'm thinking how i will go training the next day.GOSH.

and hooray!i'm going Bintan with kuzzies!i cant wait.but i so don wan to get a tan or turn dark becuz of this trip.pls.the spf 50 sunblock is a must have!i must not forget to bring.lol.

-i wan to party my time away-
lalalalala~

2008-06-04T11:20:00.002+08:00

i guess i'm still in shock.the not so goodnight sleep obviously was not helpful in the part to soothe my feelings.
fell ytd due to wet floor at home.i almost landed on the back of my head on the kitchen's curb.miraculously, my ass actually saved my head.or not i'll probably be in the hospital now with dono how many sitches or smth else.sadly,i have a bump in my ass now.it hurts.sucks man.

things were certainly not going well ytd.daddy's phone had some porb.couldnt reach him frm like 2 to 7?mummy was freaking out.end up it was some sim card thingy causing it.and the worse part,i actually studied the wrong subject the whole day for today's test.thank god i decided to go take a peek again at my seat number.gosh.

and now. there seem to be some prob with my lappy.tell me these weird things are so going to be over.like soon.grr.

-back to square one-

2008-06-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

though time's never enough for me, i dono why i can still slack ard in my mid sem period.studied for 2 chaps and i can sleep for an hour or so before i wake up to continue. but it's actually kind of effective for me though. to relax is the key for me now. i feel that the more i study, the more jumpy i get and thus the more i cant seem to focus to do well. we shall see if this new method of mine works well for me then. the results for the papers shall prove it all. (crosses my fingers)

and i'm still moody over my click five tickets. though it's already over, but i just dont get it why i cant seem to sell my tickets off. it's kinda of fustrating again. perhaps, ppl just wan free lunches. bu no free lunches exist in the world i'm in. that's abt it. oh gosh. i need to get over it now and move on.

then again. i wan to go play and go party!!go crazy and just let loose.and oh yes yes.the great singapore sale.i so need to go.

and great!going to finish another season of buffy!yeah!

2008-05-26T19:46:00.002+08:00

OMG.Business Statistic test was like -.- i dont even noe whether i did it correctly.grr.then the rest of the tut was BORING!!i almost fell asleep.really.

been kind of tired recently,trying hard to study for the coming tests,do otbs,projects and keep up with the things in karate.grr.i feel like sleeping forever and not wake up.

-stressed-

mayb i was right all along.
wadever.

2008-05-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

i realised i'm like a temperate climate.i lose my temper,but forgets everything after a (not so)good night sleep.haha.which is a good thing.i think.

i think i'm having trouble sleeping in recently.dono why.i'm not stressed out or smth.cuz i'm not even motivated to like study?haha.shit.

people come and go.
i understand.i really do.
there are just some who only wants to be with those
in their definition of 'fun','popular'.
so,i cant be bothered.
wadever.

2008-05-21T22:56:00.002+08:00

okok.i feel like banging myself in the wall.i have click five concert tickets yet i cant go.cuz the next day's exam day.grrr.why why?

and i think my legs are officially breaking apart.both my legs will feel like they detached themselves soon.really soon.lol.cuz i went running ytd at the reservoir and today's training was like #^%$#@? lol.i think i can so roll to sch tmr.sucks.funny thing is that,peanut was random.he suddenly ask me if any of the freshies guys are giving me trouble.i wonder why.trust me.they wont dare.haha.but they are a bunch of friendly ppl=)

ok.now hear me rant,complain or whine.wadever u call that.
i'm so f*cking pissed with that woman.can she like stop poking her nose in everything?and OMG.i cant see how someone can love to AA that much.it's freaking scary to a certain extent.even when someone talks to me,she wants to be part of it.obviously she's not wanting my attention,so i let her talk to him.(i don give a damn.seriously)but when ppl tries to talk to me,she even interrupts to AA.gosh.how irritating is that?
and don u laugh.who's the one trying so hard to fit in?hello.it seems like u are the one.cuz u cant even get in trend.need ppl to buy stuffs for u to be in trend.how sick is that?want to get in trend yet don wan to spend ur money for it.gross.i cant speak enough to show how gross out i am by her character.grr.seriously,how can such ppl exist?fake and AA.Eee.
i may someday slap u right in ur face.
like seriously.
so u better dont pissed me off again.
f*ck off.

2008-05-18T14:00:00.002+08:00

okok.updates.had a really busy weekend .whew.

thurs:
law tut was so super boring till i had the urge to jsut leave la!lol. movie was cool with him.the show was really funny.enjoyed both the movie and the company.but didnt really had time after the movie as i had to go over to charmaine's place. we ended up going for supper instead of k box.talked and i went to kerlyn's bf's office to help her type her wedding lists stuff. then they sent me home.=) reached home at ard 1am.

fri:
CCN day was such chore.dont like it and see no point in it.cuz i hate crowded area.every step is like 5 mins, let alone walking the whole concourse.-.-stayed only for an hour then went to meet up with wx and dennis.cuz dennis is suppose to give me a trt for the job thing.haha. then d went to pick up abi in sch and i shopped with wx. it was fun seeing him try on the clothes and me trying all the clothes. then i realised it's the sale season. haha.but i didnt buy anyhthing. went on to charmaine's place again before we head to kerlyn's place. had to discuss on how to not let her husband-to-be in the house for the wedding ceremony. haha. came out with funny ideas with the girls. then charmaine sent me home. reached home at ard 12. got ready the stuffs for tmr and i slept at 2am.

sat:
reached kerlyn's place at 6.15am. helped her sis to prepare the gross stuffs for the groom and his brothers. all i can say for the stuffs is 'yucks'. lol. they came at ard 8.they bribed us with only hundred plus before we let them in. cuz it was alr the auspicious hour. lol. then we head towards the groom's place for another round of tea ceremony. the car i was in, i kinda like it! haha. but i cant rmb wad brand is that. it starts with V though.(i think) after that, head to charmaine's hse.(drama happened along the way.) then went to christine's place. rest and bathed. then we went to do our hair. i had a temp perm! it's kinda nice but it's like the pretty me in another 6 years time? lol. i looked super mature on the wedding dinner la! but the receptionist job, i really find it kinda bimbo. cuz we had to just look pretty and smile at the people and stuff. the food was ok though. then it was home sweet home. like finally! lol.

happy marriage to my sister-like kerlyn!smiles=)
but seriously,it's really tiring.few months of preparations,but everything is like only in one day.
i dont get it.

-project mood-
grr.

2008-05-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

OMG. it was helltime at stats lec today.couldnt make out wad the lecturer was talking abt. and my head was throbbing.grr. couldnt wait for it to end.seriously.

as usual, karate was funtime for me.but i just couldnt stand her as usual.so fake.she can talk to my hand.lol.wadever.

now i cant wait for ru to call.so we can chat to our heart's content!lol.

finally it's here.lol.
cant wait.
jitters=)

2008-05-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

cool.went running with cw,yiru and xk at the reservoir.only that xk looked after our stuffs as he forgot to bring his shorts and shoes.lol.a blessing in disguise.cuz all the lockers' were occupied!haha.and i ran one round in 30 mins!i'm quite satisfied alr.but must aim for 20 mins next time=)
we decided to head back to sch to do tut,in the end we realised the gate was alr locked!haha.so we ended up climbing it.haha.kind of thrilling as it's my first time doing so?haha.then it was talk crap session after doing tut.lol.(as usual)

sch was crap today.onli went for BOE lesson as marketing tut was cancelled last min.so we ended up rotting.lol.and yes!my BOE's idea finally's accepted.then i can start doing alr=)and omg.i so need to do my otbs.shit.hello hell time.-.-

buffy was cool.lol.

2008-05-11T01:49:00.002+08:00

oh yeah. i had a really good sleep. think that's why the fever i'm expecting subsided. anyway, course orientation was kinda fun. though there were cork ups, but i had fun with malia!! haha. she's really funny and entertaining! i think we really kept doing stupid stuffs tgt. and my freshies were rather ok too=) so yep, i did enjoy myself.

and i got to say choo wang is really crazy!!haha. he gets high like in 1/2 a sec? lol.but he's certainly veri entertaining. got me to catch his fish for him during orientation. so embarrassing la! lol. but the girl couldnt really rmb who he was.(which i think it's fake)haha. so yep, i'm expecting some trt or hongbao if they get tgt!! lol!

and yep, i finally got my dress for the wedding and i bought a new black dress too! it's simple and sweet.lol. cant wait to wear it that day.hehe. getting all excited alr. bought angela's concert dvd. cuz i dont think i'll be going for her upcoming concert.but i still love her!lol.

and yep, i feel like i don have enough time to do all my stuffs!grr.no more time for buffy=(

-feeling the jitters-

2008-05-09T00:36:00.004+08:00

life cannot be any funnier with xk and cy ard.haha.the topics they talked simply amused me.and it's cool to have fren who drive.cuz then lunch breaks wont be mundane.thank farruz!haha.we went bedok market the other day and the kangkong and sotongs are really nice!!haha.but it's sad that my two lovely girlfrenz don really have the same break with me.so i'm always stuck ard the guys.lol. not that i dont like.but, i think i will sooner or later become more boy-ish or smth?haha.i really have no idea.

and i cant wait for my course orientation to like end.cuz i don feel like i do really blend in with the ppl there.they are over freindly for me.lol. always ever so polite and all to each other.it feels weird.haha.and well, sometimes u get to work with ppl u dont really like and all.but that's life isnt it?i'm worried for my camera though. pls be in a piece.lol.

oh well, and i kinda rot in law class today.it was weird in a much bigger class now.haha. then it was shopping time with her.we ate dim sum again! haha. it's always fun being with her. and i bought a top again frm four skin!=) and i'm so tempted to work there. lol.

her hair went into my eye la! lol.

and food!!haha.

and obviously,somebody's been trying to piss us off.

cant wait cant wait.lol.

2008-05-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah. i have smth coming up. and i cant wait for it!!! grrr.

and did i say that i really love my phone? cuz i really do now. lol. sometimes i think i can just take out my phone and admire it. haha. and it's good to be able to pick up calls again=)

2008-05-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

omg.i think i can stay home all day just to finish my buffy!haha.i love willow.she's so adorable and amusing.lol.anyway,there's no way i could have gone out today due to the two big blisters gotten frm training ytd.i think in some way i appeared kind of whiny to some.cuz it's the first time i had such big blisters and had to still endure those friction frm training on my poor lil' feet.so yep, it was kinda embarrassing when i was always the last to finish up those punches.-.-

not onli that,it was really random when mummy asked me today,
mummy:"u wan to go buy ur phone today?"
me:"er.yah.but singtel hadnt got the phone i want."
mummy:"just go see and ask for promotion lo.'
me:''ok."
so yes.in the end i finally got the phone i awaited long.but perhaps i really did wait too long, the excitement when i got the phone wasnt really that great.haha.

and then i did my statistics hw today.did i say i hate stats?omg.i really do.it's such a hassle and i see no meaning in calculating those figures.grrr.

-buffy getaway-=)

ppl my new number's 96779521

2008-05-03T00:10:00.002+08:00

i think i kind of got emotional seeing a sister-like-friend stepping into motherhood,getting married. it makes me think what will happen to me down the years and it's really frightening for me.yes, i can feel her joy and happiness, yet at the same time i fear for myself never will i be ready for that. i may sometimes joke that i do mayb feel that i will eventually get married, but deep down, i feel that it's still not going to happen.. it's not that i like being some old hag or smth.but more like i cant see myself spending like more than 10,20 years with one man. wad if one day we no longer feel that we have things to talk abt, what if we feel that someone else is perhaps a better choice? then wad is going to happen?

then there's motherhood.i cant even seem to take care of myself properly.being the slow and clumsy ish, how do i even take care of a child? it's weird isnt it? and certainly at this point of my life, i dont see myself being that noble and take up such huge responsibility. then the fear comes back as i noe i will never be young forever though i wish, and is having a great time at this point of time. so eventually, wad will happen? i dont noe but i hell need to think abt it and grow as time passes by. this is no fun to me at all.

coming back to reality, i think i've been daydreaming way too much. cuz i'm still in my holiday mood and i dont feel that i'm learning things though i'm going sch everyday. i guessed it's time for me to wake up isnt it? but sadly, i dont hear the wake up call at all. seriously.

-in deep thoughts-

but buffy's really a good getaway=)

2008-05-02T00:35:00.002+08:00

i think i love to contradict myself recently.lol.but that's how ppl grow right?to think and ponder over stuffs.wadever.haha.

anyway,ended up,i didnt go for the netball game today.woke up and my whole body was aching hell time.so in gulit,i msg-ed qing.i think she's pissed.lol.cuz too many ppl ps last min.sorry babe.didnt mean to.but i ended up having a day to really rest.slept till 12pm and had a wonderful breakfast.then at 3.30pm i went for a nap again,woke up at 7pm for dinner.lol.basically,a grow fat day.haha.

and yep,i think i really got a brainwash.cuz i finally have a slight thought of seeing myself getting married in the future.but still not the child part.haha.

finally,karate training was a blast ytd!there were lots of ppl who turned up.we were all really happy=)

-it's buffy time again-haha

2008-05-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

today law lecture was different as she went with me.haha.such a rare scene i must say.but still it was one of the thing we never really did before.haha.then we went to eat while her bf came to join us.never met before,didnt intend to hold any conversation with him.but in the end,he's actually quite friendly.haha.so yep,kind of talk.haha.then it was opentech tut,happy as i managed to actually teach xiang a few stuffs.haha.yes yes,surprisingly i could actually teach for that sub.haha.

business stats was damn boring.i almost dozed off.but i couldnt wait for today's training.haha.cuz a lot of freshie's supposed to come.haha.and yes, in the end,hell lot of ppl turned up.and our training was super tiring today.haha.there were many times i almost couldnt walk.haha.

and tell me how i'm going to play netball with peeps tmr.and i'm praying that i so wont get tanned.or not, so far the effort in keeping fair will be wasted.haha.
-cross fingers-

2008-04-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

marketing tut was fun.as usual,the teacher was entertaining.cuz he's like super random.haha.then it was retarded time with clique.went tm/cs to look for wilson's bday present.and i was so shocked to meet him there.but he made my day.haha=)

lol.but it was a failed attempt to surprise wilson as we celebrated his bday.we went to downtown the new area(which i dono wad's it's call)haha.that place is cool.got alot of food and i love the interior design there.super hip.haha.we wanted to go for bowling.but there were too many ppl.so we ended up having chit chat and photo-taking session.haha.it's fun to feel young.lol.

pics will be uploaded once i've received it=)

2008-04-25T23:31:00.003+08:00

omg.i love opentech lectures.cuz it ends really fast!!haha.and yep.marketing lecturer is like super amusing.i love his lessons!haha.

met up with her for dim sum the other day.it was really niceeee!!!haha.and i really love the restaurant.cuz it's almost all black.haha.then we went shopping as we still had some time.was really tempted to buy two tops at zara.one ard 17,the other 50.but i'm glad i didnt!haha.cuz i went to meet up with ex-boss at her shop and i bought like quite a few stuffs there!and it onli costed me 50 bucks in total!so,she really gave me like alot alot of disounts.hee.=D

chat abt stuffs and i think i got swirlled into the adult world.somehow,it makes me even appreciate my life now.=)

went for karate dinner today.they really can talk rubbish.lol.i couldnt stop laughing.haha.

2008-04-23T23:10:00.003+08:00

class was super boring today.and i'm so glad law has totally no exams.or not i think all those theories,i can just faint.lol.but still it doesnt really excite me at the same time too.haha.and i think i got a lil' irritated with this sub due to the time table slot.it's either i must get up really early or i have to stay till late for it.so it kind of sucks.lol.hopefully,i will find smth abt it i will like.lol.

and i finally went back for training after dono how many thousand years.lol.enjoyed their company and how sensei speaks.i must say he's really entertaining.haha.and i kind of regretted not able to attend the trainings during holidays.cuz i want to go the competition this coming sat!!grr.but then again,there's work.so too bad.next time bah.too last min for me ler.=(but i really hope they will do well!!=D

then again.i feel kinda weird these few days.it seems that working in kumon centre really helps to nuture my motherly spirit.lol.cuz i actually hesitated when i was telling my fren that i didnt like kids.so yes.it's kinda of weird now.haha.mayb i got my verdict too soon or smth?lol.i dono.

and yep.thanks to victor and abi for both the notes and books!really appreciate it!=)

it's all the little things that add up to it.
i'm beginning to get all my lil' bit and pieces tgt for the whole picture .
wad about u?

2008-04-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

yeah=)i just realised i'd met a nice cab driver.he drove to my place to return my phone and didnt want any money when i offered him!=)so nice right?so yes.i have my phone back.therefore,so are my contacts.mayb i shld start writing my contacts somewhere in case this kind of things happen again(not).lol.

oh man.i might have to go my cds lec like alone tmr.lol.cuz my lovely cousin decided to work.-.-
i cant wait for fri for dim sum with her!!lol.

-tired frm work-

i commit to it even without realising it till now.

2008-04-22T11:50:00.003+08:00

class was ok ytd.i think this sem i found subs that i will probably like and would want to work with.one is marketing and the other open tech.they sound fun to me=)

went kbox with peeps last night after sch.and i seriously dono how i spent my money.lol.it suddenly seemed used up.lol.and how funny it is when i'm supposed to be saving money.grr.and i only managed to like sing two full songs by myself last night!cuz yiru kept singing with me.but it was fun when we all attempted to sing the 'low' song tgt.i was really amused.lol.and yeah babe,i was kinda shocked when u told me that u didnt noe if u shld bring jacket anot,as u didnt believe in whether we really are going to kbox when i told u we were.why would i want to bluff u?it makes no sense to me.like wad's there to bluff abt?lol.seriously,i didnt get it.

i was so looking forward to meet up with cousin today for dim sum.in the end i realised i had to go for BOE lesson from 3-4pm.then after that to work.so yes,it's postponed to fri.we were both disappointed.lol.

and i got a reality slap on my face when i wanted to say my life aint a drama.in a way it is?lol.cuz last night after reading yiru babe's msg,i didnt put my hp back into my bag and fell asleep on the cab.so yes, in the end i left it on the cab.realised it and i called my phone.could hear the cab driver but forgot my damn phone doesnt function without earpiece.so i had prob communicating with the cab driver.end up,i msged my hp like 3 times asking the driver to call my hse phone.it really wasnt helping when my hp just died.lol.there wasnt any batt as i didnt charge.but luckily,the driver finally called my hse and he's driving to my place later at 4.30pm.just that i have to pay him the cab fare for driving here.luckily he stays at hougang and not jurong.or not i can faint.lol.qute a good deal for him though?send a hp and earn 20 bucks.lol.got to rush for work after that though.

overall,kind of bad day for me.-.-

and yes,i finally figured out wad i want=)

2008-04-19T00:57:00.004+08:00

i'm deprived of time to just rot inthe hse!thank god i dont have work this weekend.but that would oso mean lesser money in my account.lol.

outing with them was fun.it's just nice chatting and bullshitting ard with them.feels really comfortable ard with them=)but sadly, i didnt really get to tour sp.cuz apparantly,i was the onli one who's interested in the touring part.lol.nvm.i'll still do it someday to satisfy myself.lol.and i bought a bag from MANGO today!=)was love at first sight with the one in red.but in the end i still chose my fav colour-black.as i still tot it was the safest colour to go ard with just any clothes.(better to buy a bag i can use it everytime than let it rot right?lol.)it costed me 50 bucks.didnt manage to reach home before mum.so yes,in the end she got her speech ready for me as always.

and erm,i think i want to knock myself in the wall.i should have know!i just process really slow dont i?lol.

-conceptual mind in doubts-

2008-04-19T00:43:00.003+08:00

pics with her on the other day when we went shopping=)
love her to the max since young!
apparantly,she claims that her phone disfunctions only with me ard.wadever.lol.
we were trying the same outing and obviously,i wasnt REALLY ready for the cam.haha.
(By the way,i really love this top.but it cost 73 bucks. didnt really want to spend it on a so-so material. so i gave it up.lol)

2008-04-17T12:27:00.003+08:00

Ooo.timetables' out.there's mixed feelings actually.cuz though it aint really hectic,but the timing doesnt really allow me to work.grr.how?luckily there's still weekends.and then,me,yiru and jayne are all in diff classes!!but i'm so glad that xk's in the same class as me.i think i have an interesting class coming my way.lol.i hope i wont have any social problem.lol.

and i'm really feeling veri guilty.cuz i've been missing out alot on karate!sometimes on work yet sometimes due to the plans i alr have.really sorry abt!but it'll be norm once sch reopens=)

and yep.majong session was fun.cuz it'd been long since we all last met up.=)
of course,shopping with my lovely cousin ytd was really fun too!and i bought a new pair of shoes<3(secretly)shh.lol.mummy doesnt noe abt it.haha.
cant wait for tmr though!(my little sch girl trip.lol)

cheer up babe!

2008-04-15T22:49:00.004+08:00

yeah. pictures=)

that's about it.lol.

2008-04-15T12:43:00.002+08:00

okay.i went to the singapore flyer with my parents ytd(bro was suppose to go too but he had to stay in last min.) and i think it was kinda boring.lol.it was less thrilling and the night scenes were just lights all around the city.haha. and it's such a waste of money too. we took a cab there which cost 14 bucks,the thing costed ard 44 bucks as daddy has some discount thingy or dono wad, then we took a cab home costing 13 bucks. so in total we spent daddy spent ard 101 bucks (not counting the dinner) for the trip. and i cant believe daddy said:"let's come again in the morning or afternoon again."
i wanted to faint.lol.
okay.pics will be uploaded soon.cuz ish's feeling a lil' lazy.haha

i guessed it's all a mixed feelings now.i'm not even sure myself.

2008-04-15T12:33:00.002+08:00

updates!=) it was his bday and we sure did surprised him!haha.

still counting the friendship for the coming years=)

2008-04-09T18:41:00.003+08:00

yeah.back frm FOW.it was great having nana to stay over.though foodmin seemed to always slack,but we get really busy during mealtimes.and gosh.i was the food i/c for the last day during lunch.i almost died.lol.had to run to and fro like a complete idiot.but thankfully nothing much cropped up.and i ate like really alot during FOW.the leftover food are SCARY.haha.

and yes.managed to finish 2 episodes of buffy during these few days.(if onli i can fight like her.lol)cant wait to meet up with wx they all on fri!and i miss yiru badly!she's alr back frm hk.

both my feet are sore now.lol.

i kept drinking bubble tea recently!love it to the max!
forever love(lol):honey milk tea
new love:ice cream with cornflakes frm A1.(yummy)

will upload if i have any pics=)

i have a new love.haha.

2008-04-07T10:21:00.002+08:00

i'm waiting for nana then we will go for the FOW tgt=)
the lovely darling's staying over for the next two nights.cant wait!haha.

2008-04-07T10:11:00.002+08:00

his bday celebration=)

2008-04-06T12:39:00.003+08:00

work was tiring ytd.and i think i got bullied by the same girl again.i cant understand her prob.but it's not going to put me down.cuz i have a lovely manager=)got my pay.it's been long since i last received money i actually earned.haha.

supposed to meet jas and all.but end up they werent going town.instead,going to slack at some void deck.in the end i didnt go.(sorry abt it babe.needed to go somewhere else)cuz i was suppose to go meet wx,dennis they all.so met up with them,we went amk botak jones to celebrate victor's bday.the journey was really long!we were dying of hunger when we reached there.haha.we ate and played games.i think all of us were like really full.serious.lol.and i think i kept laughing till my stomach hurts.lol.and yes.i noe they are talking abt something.hmm.

journey home was sweet=)

and now.hear me rant.
i cant believe the words that actually came out of ur mouth.i mean,do u even listen to urself?!u said things without going through ur mind whether it will hurt someone else.and u simply love to be stucked in the past and not move on.people do change.but u only insist ur own ways,ur own principles and beliefs.we both grow up in different culture.which u simply dont see the whole picture.u have no rights to condemn me.
the cold war has not ended.and i simply just cant be bothered to talk to u.wadever.

2008-04-06T12:26:00.002+08:00

pictures with kuzz!loves.

2008-04-05T11:23:00.002+08:00

i started out my day feeling stupid actually.went sch to pay up for the FO shirts.tot that i would be able to collect stuffs,know the details of the camp.but in the end,no information was fed etc.so yes,i should have just transferred the money to them.lol.but thankfully,the rest of the day was amazing fun.

met up with kuzz and acc her to do her extension.while she was doing her hair,i was totally entertained/engrossed in COOKING MAMA and DINER DASH in her nitendo.or wadever u call that.lol.then we went on to PS to have our lunch as i wanted to get some stuffs at spotlight.the dumpling soup noodle was great but not with those weird waitress and cooks.they just kept staring at us.haha.at spotlight,i think we really got high when we started to imagine people with 'buttons and diamonds spots' it was damn lame.then we did some shopping and off she went to work while i went to meet nana and leslie.

they acc me to ikea and i just started to imagine how my room will looked like after renovations.but of cuz,i have to start saving for almost everything?lol.then we went to town again and met up with weizhen.had fun at the arcade.lol.

ytd was love as it's been long i last had a good laugh with kuzz and just spend time with the nana.=)

funny conversations:
me:"will u still love me if i turn lesbian one day?"
kuzz:"of cuz.oh u mean u are in love with some girl?"
me:"no.i'm just saying if."
kuzz:"then u must be in love with me!haha."
me:"no.how can i be in love with a 'fa shui mian bao' face?LOL."
kuzz:-.-"

me(turns to nana):"do u think i became prettier?"
nana:-ignored-
me(turns to leslie):"hey,i became prettier right?"
leslie:-ignored-
me(turns to weizhen):"didnt see me for so long,i became prettier right?"
weizhen:-ignored-
haha.it was random but i still cant believe they gave me the same reaction.
and nana couldnt stop laughing.lol.

2008-04-03T16:41:00.003+08:00

i'd quited my job.when tmr's the last day.lol.yes yes. i noe it's kinda stupid to forsake that 100 bucks but i really didnt feel like going back to the call center.though i really need the money.but still, the people there dont respect receptionist AT ALL.so though it's suppose to be an easy job.it became a 'wtf' job.wadever.

and i'm happy to just rest well and take a rest before i start work again at CS there and go for FOW on mon.i guess i really needed the rest.=)and it feels good to go back to the crunchyroll days.haha. and i alr found another job! haha.it's the kumon job that i wanted to work at the start of the holiday.but cuz there wasnt any vaccancy then.so yes.i'm still earning ok?haha. i'm determined to finish off the debts. mayb i'll just sacrifice that phone i'd been eyeing from dono since when.i guessed it's more realistic this way.

and yes.i dono when i'm suppose to meet wx to do the 'special' present for dennis.haha.hopefully i'll get my part done first.as i'm really a busy girl.dono whether i'll be able to finish it on time.
-cross fingers-

my life aint a drama
i'm running all my life

Yet who will know wad i want?
when i don even noe for sure myself.

i dreamt of u again.
mayb someday he'll really appear.

2008-03-31T23:36:00.006+08:00

OMG.i think i'm running out of energy.went to dennis's bro chalet to celebrate wangxu's bday.it was love.haha.but it was the most crowded chalet i'd ever been to.think credits to his mum.haha.i think we spent most of the time hogging the room to ourselves.lol.but the ride home was really fun.wheeEE.lol.thanks to wx.=)

today was funny at work.had a discussion with yiru and xk regarding short forms for words.then a funny conversation popped up.
think it went smth like that....
yiru:i sent a msg to xk before.
me:wad is it?
yiru:abt smth "let's go___ tom."
xk:who's tom??
yiru:LAUGHS.it's TOMORROW.
i couldnt stop laughing.lol.

and oh yes.i'm going to be jobless officially by end of this week.lol.cuz the call center no longer need ppl.so yes.i'm rather upset.lol.

met up with cw,jayne and wilson tgt with yiru and xk.went han's.it's been long since we last hang out.tiring.but still it was love.=)

it's hard not able to tell
but it's alr clear for myself
perhaps.way too clear.

PICTURES!!!hahaha.

it's his BDAY!!

the two best buddies i ever had.lol

i still cant believe he rode me home.LOL

the people who made the chalet enjoyable=)

2008-03-25T22:52:00.003+08:00

and yes yes.went out with mummy and bro the other day.it's been so long since we last went out to just shop.and mummy was really nice.she paid for like everything.really everything.lol.so i suggested to go haagen dazs.it's been ages since i last went there.then we went on to buy a new vacuum cleaner and we went to the arcade as well.haha.obviously,u can guess who's the noob one among the three of us.muhaha.lastly, we went to take neoprints!lol.for the fun of it.and yes.mummy paid for it again=)

now i got to talked abt my new job!yes yes.got a new teledirect job.it's a call center and all i have to do is to pick up calls.it's kind of a slacky job.it's like i can picked up a call and then stone for 3 mins.haha.i love it!the pay's not bad too!that's the best part.lol.it's really interesting too as sometimes u can get really amusing callers. like one which when:

caller:"hello...u..english or chinese..."

me(in chinese):"it's alright.i can understand chinese and speak to u in chinese.how can i help u?

caller:"good good.okay."

me(in chinese)"so how can i help u sir?"

caller:"i would like to reschedule my flight and make some changes to it."(IN ENGLISH)

i went-.-.i tot he wanted someone who can speak chinese?haha.funny man.

then there was this man who asked yiru.

man:"how come u cant ans my qns?"

yiru:"i'm sorry.i'm just the receptionist."

man:"okay.nvm.why not i promote u to become the customer service officer.then u will be able to ans my qns.haha."

yiru:"LOL.u are really humourous sir."

see.i told u there are funny people.but of cuz there are too impatient people who are at boiling points.but it's still fun as we can just pass to the seniors=)haha.

was it just more than a friendship?

or am i thinking too much?

i wonder

but it doesnt really matter

cuz i think i'm running away from it.

wadever.

2008-03-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

finally some catch ups=) the pics frm karate competition.

2008-03-19T11:47:00.003+08:00

i cant believe i'm finally starting to work!!yeah!cuz this means income coming in.but hopefully i wont spend more than i earn.lol.and hope everything goes well today.=)

2008-03-18T00:15:00.002+08:00

firstly,i think the cooking on fri didnt go veri well.haha.it was too dry.but luckily,it was still edible.or not i will be wasting food.but i got rather upset as i felt that mummy's critics were kinda harsh.but of cuz i noe it was of good intention..

then i got to talk abt my karate competition!i still cant believe that i got a bronze for it.=)think i was kinda lucky in a way too.cuz i felt that my opponents werent really that strong.but except for the one i lost to who got a gold.i was told she's good.so yep.but the kick in the face was so not expected??!!!and the punch frm her at my chin left me a small bruise.luckily it's small.or not i wont have to go out anymore.overall,i guessed it's a good experience=)

and now.hear me rant.i cant stand it.i'd been trying to dl cabal for like so many times and yet it's always because of some internet connection,it had been cut off.(in my bro's com)and now.i cant even use msn properly as i keep getting dc.argh.it pisses me off.like really pissed me off.and i think it's cuz of the virus tanglin sent me and i stupidly clicked on it.grr.(girl,next time if u kenna virus on msn,can u at least put it on ur personal msg like farruz to save ppl frm the trouble?)grr.

then there's abt the job issue.supposedly i alr can start work tmr.called the person,she was busy,told she will call me back.in the end,she didnt!omg.i'm going crazy!!i wan to work so badly.cuz there's obviously no money tree growing somewhere near me.lol.then the data entry job,the person oso didnt reply the email.argh.don tell me i'll have to rot till april.it will really sucks big time.

2008-03-13T16:21:00.002+08:00

great.i managed to like diet ytd after been trying so many freaky days.lol.okay.i'm seriously not aneroxic or smth but just wan to have a better control of the stuffs i eat.ate like 2 slices of bread in the morning till after karate training ended and then when to changi with peeps to half bowl of noodles.

lol.think partially it was my bad that we couldnt catch the last bus as i was only released frm training at 9.30pm.when i met up with them,it was alr 10 plus.then due to the chitchats,we only ordered food at 11 plus.of cuz,it took us longer to both eat and talk.haha.so we ended up not knowing where to go.seriously,i was up for the idea for us to all book a room at changi hotel and then played cards the whole night.(it sounded a diff idea to me.lol)but i think then we will have a weird time explaining to our parents where we went for the night.LOL.so in the end we went to xk's hse.then it was a super lame night.haha.(and we learnt a new game)the traditional egg and toast breakfast was great!

went home and of cuz i fell asleep on the bus.luckily there was cw.or not i wont noe where the bus would take me to.haha.and yes,meeting up with them later to watch step up2.(like finally)haha.since we saw the movie thriller,we all couldnt wait for the show to be out.so yes,meeting them in the night later on.exciting life huh?lol.forever going out.i think i will soon hear my daddy speaks.(if u noe wad i mean)lol.

and after some thought,i realised i'd been missing out time with tonberry and some iguides ppl.but i seriously didnt mean to.cuz for some reasons,i dono why my dates with them always end up clashing with my peeps',always having to make a hard choice.but of cuz,i always go with my principle of 'go with the early birds'.so yes,couldnt blame myself if they are too last min right?but i will try to make it a point to meet up with them soon.i miss them!especially darling nana(=

2008-03-12T14:31:00.002+08:00

ok.i have a bad morning.lol.cuz i dozed off from the conference talk last morning.lights werent switched off,leftover plates on the table amd i didnt even brushed my teeth.(super unglam scene)last of all.i wasnt in my own room.HAHA.

okok.i fell asleep in my bro's room(cuz he's in his camp) while chatting with peeps.and we still dono where we are going later on and for tmr.lol.we were supposed to meet tmr to get our results tgt.in the end most of us received the sms results today(except jayne).ok.but still i'm meeting them after my karate training(=

i woke up feeling great.like i have alot of energy in me and all.but when it started pouring outside,it puts me off.gosh.it's been raining since like dono when and i want the SUN!!grr. (and not when my morning sign-ness or wadever u call that became a flu.)although i don really like the sun as i don like getting tanned and stuff.but still, i miss the sunny days.

and i dono wad's with me.but i having alot of emotions going on in me.maybe it's the karate competition that's coming up.i feel like some parts of me are doubting myself.it's like it's never ending hearing ppl say "OMG.u are in karate?i cannot believe it." or "are u kidding me?u dont look like one and all." i just don understand that why a girl who may be gentle and loves shopping, manicure and stuff cannot be in karate. why cant a soft spoken girl sometimes be loud? mayb it's just in me that i have a drastic personality.(and it makes sense since i'm a gemini)but it's kind of getting me. but still, i noe that i wan to feel stronger.cuz karate does makes me feel that way.it trains my reflexes to be faster and all.haha.

i wan to kick some ass.lol.

and tada!! RESULTS as follows:
accounts:C+
principles of management:B
e-biz management:A(=
econs:B+
system analysis:B+
database:D+
jap:C+

hmm.i think overall i did an ok job.but i'm kinda dissapointed in my accounts.grr.

2008-03-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

life's been mundane recently.cuz i've got no job.lol.been going out and spending money.(mostly on movies)due to the boredom.but of cuz,it had been fun.(=

but i went for an interview at cs BEGA today.i think it's an ok job to pass time and earn.but the pay's only 5 bucks per hour.but it's so freaking near.how how?i'm hoping for a better job to come along though.i've still got up to sunday to decide.

anyway,movie and majong marathon at yiru's place was great.watched like 4 horror flicks and i realised that i'm no longer as brave as i thought?lol.especially for the freaky doll master.(i hate dolls)and yep.shutter still shut me up.lol.for it's the sixth time i'm watching it yet i still cant get over the gory face.grrr.and for the majong part.it was fun.but not when i had to lose quite a sum compared to the rest.lol.but still,it's ok since everyone's HAPPY=)

went to meet up with wangxu and dennis.haha.seems like a decade since i last saw them.we just continue to chitchat all the way since we havent been updating ourselves.haha.went to catch rule #1.ok.i have to admit i feel that it's really scary.(mayb it's the sound effect and all)but it really got my heart thumping and stuff.but still,i dont quite get the ending.lol.

and yes,i forgot i love to doodle.haha.been spending some time to just draw.lol.

finally,i feel like i wan to be so many different characters.

1.vampire slayer

2.undercover

3.mermaid

4.crime scene investigator

5.singer

6.model

7.werewolf

haha.i think i really got bored of my life.i'm going mad stucked in the hse.LOL.

2008-03-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

yeah.the pics taken when i cooked.HAHA.